Nikki Lilly has spent much of her life navigating chronic illness, hospital stays and a body that has often felt unfamiliar to her. She shares how creativity, therapy, family and connection have helped her rebuild her confidence and learn to accept herself exactly as she is. This is a conversation about self-love, resilience and finding your way back to yourself. This episode explores Chronic Illn

For Matt Willis, addiction was never the real problem. It was the solution to a pain he didn't know how to deal with. In this solo episode, Matt talks about Mending, his new memoir tracing his lifelong relationship with addiction, recovery, and the work of understanding what sits underneath it. He shares why he wrote the book, how he's learned to let go of resentment towards his past, and why reco

Matt Willis sits down with Professor David Nutt, one of the world's leading experts on drugs and the brain, to answer a question so many people carry in silence: why can't I just stop? David explains how addiction changes the brain, why willpower isn't always enough, and why understanding the biology can help replace shame with compassion. He also explores the emerging science of psychedelics and

Musician and internet personality Window Kid, aka Greg, built a career around being the life of the party, until drinking nearly cost him his life. After being hospitalised with severe pancreatitis, Greg was faced with a reality he couldn't ignore: if he carried on drinking, he could die. But getting sober also meant confronting a bigger fear, who was Window Kid without alcohol? Greg shares how he

Mental health and dementia advocate Jordan Adams grew up watching Frontotemporal Dementia slowly take his mum away. Years later, a genetic test revealed that he carries the same mutation. Jordan shares the unique grief of losing someone while they're still here, and what it means to live knowing he may develop the same disease that took his mum. But rather than allowing that uncertainty to define

Mental health campaigner Ben West was 17 when his younger brother Sam took his own life. In a single night, everything changed. Ben shares the guilt he carried afterwards, the conversations he wishes he'd known how to have, and how he eventually began to understand that he wasn't responsible for what happened. He also explores how grief became purpose, from campaigning for better mental health edu

Race Across the World star Alfie Watts knows how much can change in a day. At 16, during the lowest point of his life, he made a decision to stay for “one more day”, then another. Years later, Alfie looks back at that version of himself as someone he barely recognises. From losing his mum and finding family outside of blood, to becoming the role model he once needed, Alfie shares the mindset that

Musician and songwriter Preston sits down with Matt to explore fame, addiction, and the long road back to himself. Preston shares how a four-storey fall from a hotel balcony in Denmark led to months in a wheelchair, an OxyContin prescription, and a private battle with addiction. He also reflects on the pressures of sudden fame after Celebrity Big Brother, being prescribed Prozac at 14, and trying

Former England rugby star James Haskell explores life with unmedicated ADHD, the pressure of rugby's “tough guy” culture, and finding a sense of identity beyond the sport. James shares what it was like to navigate elite rugby without ADHD medication, the self-doubt behind his confident public persona, and why he believes real strength comes from being willing to talk. After retiring at 35, James h

Singer and TV presenter Michelle Heaton's story is about more than addiction. It's about identity, loss, and finding your way back to yourself. In this episode, Michelle shares how a BRCA2 diagnosis, surgical menopause, and addiction became deeply intertwined, and how recovery helped her reconnect with the person she thought she'd lost. Together, we explore shame, healing, and why recovery is neve

In this solo episode, Matt Willis answers some of the internet’s most searched questions about addiction, relapse, and recovery, sharing the lessons he’s learned from his own journey. Matt explores why substances can feel like a solution before becoming something we need help escaping, why addiction isn’t a choice or a moral failing, and why relapse doesn’t mean starting again from zero. He also s

One of the UK's leading mental health advocates, Josh Connolly, joins us for a deeply honest conversation about childhood trauma, addiction, and what it really takes to break generational cycles. Josh reflects on growing up with a father battling severe alcoholism, witnessing his death at just nine years old, and the lasting impact those experiences had on his own life. He shares how he found hims

TV presenter Sam Thompson opens up about his late-stage ADHD diagnosis and the profound relief of finally finding a reason, not an excuse, for a lifetime of struggling. Sam shares the emotional reckoning of his diagnosis, recalling the moment he wept uncontrollably as the weight of self-blame, school struggles, and feeling "not enough" finally lifted. He shares the practical, everyday tools that k

Premier League footballer Michail Antonio gets honest about the hidden cost of elite success, identity, and what it really means to rebuild. In this episode, Michail reflects on the reality of winning a historic trophy with West Ham, only to spend months struggling with depression and feeling overwhelmed by the pressure that followed. He also opens up about starting therapy at 34 to unpack childho

Sober Girl Society founder Millie Gooch challenges everything we think we know about dependency in a conversation that dismantles the “rock bottom” myth. Despite a successful career and social life, alcohol was quietly affecting her mental health and relationships, leading her to realise she couldn’t keep going as she was. This discussion explores the cycle of “hangxiety” and how drinking is often

Sexologist and TV expert Dr. Tara Suwinyattichaiporn (Celebs Go Dating, 90 Day Fiancé) joins us to break the heavy silence and shame surrounding sex, intimacy, and recovery. In a particularly raw moment, Matt admits he’s never spoken openly about sex with another man, highlighting the exact stigma that causes so many men to suffer in silence. Dr. Tara, who has built an audience of over 2 million f

Singer-songwriter and actor Will Young speaks with disarming honesty about surviving decades of trauma, hypervigilance, and the long shadow of shame. Following a breakdown during Cabaret, Will opens up about spending over ten years in a state of severe dissociation, describing it as living behind frosted glass, unable to recognize faces or feel joy. He also shares his profound path to healing thro

The Script's Danny O'Donoghue gets brutally honest about grief, PTSD, and what it really took to get sober. Following the devastating loss of his bandmate and best friend Mark Sheehan, Danny opens up about hitting rock bottom over a dark Christmas in Dublin and the brutal reality of quitting it all cold turkey. This discussion tracks the rollercoaster of Danny's career, from a failed €15 million r

TV presenter and broadcaster Ore Oduba joins us for an incredibly raw and unflinchingly honest conversation on pornography addiction, toxic masculinity, and grief. Ore opens up about being introduced to explicit material at just nine years old and the devastating "duality" of spending 30 years hiding his addiction while living a highly successful public life. This discussion dives deep into how re

Award-winning comedian and broadcaster John Robins tackles the fundamental question: are alcoholics born or made? In this episode, John opens up about his 20-year struggle with chronic alcohol use, the childhood signs that hid in plain sight, and why every "moderation spreadsheet" failed until he accepted that one drink was the real problem. The conversation moves past the "why" of addiction to fo